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Wow! It has been almost four days since I have had a minute to sit down and write something.

I am a little overwhelmed with life right now.

The ridiculous thing is nothing huge is going on. We are healthy. Things are good. Thank the Lord.

Yet over the past few weeks I have been struggling with feeling mediocre at everything I do. I feel torn into a hundred pieces, and am having a hard time juggling all the roles I am trying to attend to.

Mother, wife, friend, sister, volunteer, housekeeper, daughter, neighbor… I want to be good at everything but I am dropping the ball all over the place.

The other day I had a play date with a friend. Her daughter was up to date on her shots, learning sign language at a rapid rate, and done with the pacifier and bottles and on to sippy cups.

My daughter is the same age. She is struggling STILL to sleep through the night, I haven’t even thought about weening her off the bottle, and sign language? Um, another thing I hadn’t put on my to do list.

I left the play date feeling defeated. I came home and packed up all her bottles and got her big girl sippy and straw cups. I went to the library and checked out “Baby Signing Time” videos so we could work on her sign language. I panicked because I realized I hadn’t made her appointment for her shots and she is behind.


I’ve been trying to sit down to write for days. I am amazed at how RIGHT when I sit down I am needed. Time to make dinner, run an errand, or something of the sorts. I have the best intentions to catch up on the blog and my daughter starts growing in her molars. It has been crazy around here. So I have a screaming baby clinging at my legs under the computer desk to pick her up and cuddle. How can I ignore that? I’ve been scooping her up and saving my work. I can save it for later.


I broke down the other day. I felt flat out exhausted. Trying to keep my house perfectly clean, budget, exercise several days a week, and be the best mom and wife I can be I burnt out. I was running on empty. I cried all day and moped around like a sad sack. I felt like a failure mom, friend, and wife. I hadn’t responded to about 10 emails, forgot to send a birthday card, and replying to blog comments? Failed at that too.

You’d think being a stay at home mom is easy- right? I have all the time in the world to spend with my daughter and attend to our home and my marriage. The crazy thing is that time is an illusion. It gets sucked up so darn fast. Sometimes the “important” things get eaten up by the “lesser” things.

I am not super woman. I will not get everything done. I will fail here and there. Sometimes the dinner I cook will taste disgusting and I will break down in tears at my defeat. I am starting to notice myself aging, and the new wrinkles around my eyes the other day had me freaking out. I pulled out the eye cream I bought a year ago at an Arbonne party and doused my eyes with twice the amount I needed. I’ve been a hot mess. And no- it’s not hormonal. I checked;).

The bottom line is that I cannot do it all. I gotta drop some balls so I can pick up others. My to do list needs to be written in pencil so I can erase it. My role is to adjust to the crazy. The only way I can adapt is to embrace it.

Exhaustion does a funny thing to you. You start to get delirious and loopy, and you start to laugh at the silliest of things. You stop taking everything so seriously. Have you ever watched an exhausted fourteen month old? They get a little crazy hyper- giggling/ crying/ rolling/ stammering all over the place.

Well- I am there. It’s pretty hilarious. And I’ve been told to enjoy it because it doesn’t last forever.

So thanks everyone for hanging in there while I have been a little MIA. 🙂

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  • Reply Carole

    Girl, you gotta cut yourself some slack. Don’t worry about being perfect – you will do just fine.

    June 11, 2013 at 4:10 am
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Thanks! I am trying- it was just such a bad week! I appreciate your comment!

      June 13, 2013 at 7:57 pm
  • Reply Holly

    We all get overwhelmed sometimes! We can all relate! Here’s a quote for you: “Any idiot can face a crisis- it’s the day to day living that wears you out.” -Anton Chekhov
    So true!

    June 11, 2013 at 4:32 am
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Hey Holly! So true. Thanks for that reminder. It is a little ridiculous how much I can blow these things out of proportion!

      June 13, 2013 at 7:58 pm
  • Reply Danette

    I’ve been feeling the same way and I hate it. Be encouraged today.

    June 11, 2013 at 5:55 am
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Thanks Danette! I loved your post about where you are in life right now. You have such great insights. You be encouraged, too! 🙂

      June 13, 2013 at 7:58 pm
  • Reply Lauren

    I think all women feel this way at some point (or all the time!)- thanks for being so honest about it. You’ll get back in your groove 🙂

    June 11, 2013 at 2:07 pm
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Thanks Lauren! I agree! It comes with the territory. On my way to visit your blog now! 🙂

      June 13, 2013 at 7:59 pm
  • Reply Amberly

    I had to sit down and make a list of the roles that I have and then underneath each one, I wrote some boundaries that I have to keep myself from going insane. When I’m going to say no to people, what my priorities are, etc. It’s helped a lot!


    June 11, 2013 at 8:10 pm
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      I’ve so done that before- but it has been a while! What a great reminder. I need to get better at saying no, but am doing a tiny bit better every day. I love your blog! Thanks for the comment!

      June 13, 2013 at 8:00 pm
  • Reply Erica {let why lead}

    I’m dropping the ball all over the place, too. Sometimes intentionally in order to simplify, but sometimes not. I can SO relate to not feeling like I’m really excelling at any of my rolls. It’s annoying! …And disheartening. But I’m sure you are doing much better than you think. We all are. We women tend to be a little hard on ourselves. Now go get yourself a bar of dark chocolate!

    June 11, 2013 at 8:43 pm
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Ah, thanks for your honest comment! Now that I am in a better state of mind I can say I am doing better. We are so hard on ourselves. Your post actually spoke exactly to this! Thanks:). Chocolate, wine, something!

      June 13, 2013 at 8:04 pm
  • Reply Alessandra Ferguson

    Don’t be too hard on yourself You’re being just what you need to be in this season of life, and you are doing it to the best of your ability. Don’t forget to give yourself a little grace, we all need it sometimes! 🙂 You’re an awesome wife and mama and I am sure your family knows you love them! Take a deep breath and just laugh at yourself, and cry if you need it, sometimes that helps a lot too! We will defintely be waiting here for you whenever you return…at least I will, friend!

    June 11, 2013 at 10:19 pm
    • Reply Tiffany Cutcliff

      Thanks girl! Your too sweet. I am so excited for you to have your baby. Keep us all posted please! We can’t wait to see him!

      Your so encouraging. Thanks again!

      June 13, 2013 at 8:05 pm

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