This morning I sat back and reflected on what drew me to blogging after I had Lillian.
In part, I think much of it had to do with identity crisis. I had decided to stay at home with Lillian, and I wonder if deep down I was freaking out. The last time I could remember being off work for more than two weeks or so was summer vacation in high school before I got my first job.
I guess I knew deep down that staying home with Lillian would be a worthy and full-time job, but I was also nervous about losing my identity and having something each day I could look back on and say “I did that”.
I think blogging helped me cope. I had something other than my child to worry about. I look back and wonder if those hours were well spent, but I know they were times of reflection and inspiration for myself. I have to let it go, because I suppose at the time I did need my own project and hobby.
How about you? What got you into blogging and do you ever feel torn between making time to blog and the other duties in your life? Do you ever wonder if it is worth the time like I do?
I’m just being honest here. I know I love it and am always looking forward to my next post, journaling about ideas, and grateful for the relationships I have met. It’s just always a battle to prioritize life! I often feel the pull between laundry, my post, personal time with God, or just taking my daughter to the park.
But, I’ve gotten wiser in how to spend my time. I know that I do need “me” time, and if this is the way I love to spend it, then carving out an hour or so each day is well worth it.