Giving thanks

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It is easy to watch the years go by and to take for granted life. As I sit here harvesting gratitude, I am overwhelmed by so much.

I am so grateful for my health and my body. It isn’t perfect. I currently have several large cavities that need fixing, and a few issues I need to take on with a doctor. My memory is escaping me more and more with time, and I have my first gray hairs. I am certainly aging.

But I can see. I can hear. I have fingers to type and to mold play-doh with my daughter and to wipe tears from her cheek. I can run. I can laugh. Even if I was confined to a chair or bed I could listen to Beethoven or have someone read me a book. I am so blessed to have my mind to ponder and wonder and pray.

And food, wonderful food! I get to enjoy food today with people I adore. I can taste. How fortunate are we to have the luxury to gather around a table, even with just one person we love, and share a meal.

I am so happy God gave me a companion like my husband. My life is filled with adventures and meaning because of this man. I love him more and more as the years go on. And the years get harder, let me assure you! Marriage stretches and pulls me more than I ever imagined. I am learning new things about myself and about him as the days press on. Marriage is not only about romance. It is about commitment, deep friendship, grace, and growth. It is pressing on through hard times so the good times are so much sweeter. And there have been many, many sweet times.

I am beyond thankful for my daughter. I never really imagined having kids. The thought had always scared me a bit. The privilege of becoming a mother has been one of the greatest unexpected joys in my life. It has been scary, even terrifying at times, to recognize that my husband and I have such a monumental task of raising our little girl in a very crazy and unstable world. It has been daunting to feel my heart expand with so much love for this little gal and know that each day brings me closer to releasing her into the world, hoping and praying for her every step of the way.

Lastly, thank you God for rescuing me even when I was such a mess. My life has never been the same since that day I asked you to help me on the side of the road on a highway in Arizona. You came to my rescue, and you have never departed from me. Not in my hardest moments, not during my darkest hours, and not even when I acted selfish and forgot about you time and time again.

Truth is, my life is full with just these things. Full to the brim, overflowing, and alive. Yet I have so many other blessings, too. My sisters, my father and mother, many beautiful in-laws and a step-mother, nana’s and grandma’s and grandpa’s and cousins… friends and colleagues and church family. I get to experience beauty in nature, deep and rich foods and coffee, and moments of comfort with my family watching a show.

I have already lived a full, undeserving, and good life. So, today I record how thankful and blessed I am by my life thus far. I am thankful to those who have helped me have freedom in the country I live in, and thankful to the God I serve for his good providence that wakes me up morning after morning to sun, lovely faces, and another day of life.

Comments

  1. says

    I love this post – it had me smiling the whole way through. Getting older is not always pretty (physically or emotionally or mentally), but what a gift it is, too…. life and breath and each new day we’re gifted – praise!

    • Tiffany Cutcliff says

      Thanks Emily! That is so sweet of a compliment. I love what you wrote, and you are right, growing older is bittersweet but also beautiful.

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