I am delighted to announce that we are expecting our second child!
We have been trying to conceive for almost two years. About one year ago I started worrying… why wasn’t I getting pregnant? I never got back on birth control after I had my daughter, who is now three and a half. She was a unplanned, three months into our marriage. I had just assumed conceiving would be as easy the first time as the second. I did the due diligence of charting, downloading as many apps as possible on my phone, drinking tea that would make me more fertile, and all the other things I could do to try.
As soon as we started discussing adoption or fostering, and I had made an appointment to have some infertility testing done, I found out I was six weeks pregnant!
The past few months were a whirlwind of emotions. I thought I had miscarried, but I am grateful I did not. It was quite the scare, and I had to wait five days to ensure I had a healthy baby. I was a mess. Through the process, I really hunkered down and focused a ton on my family.
Also- my first trimester was awful. I felt sick all morning until almost three. I could hardly function. Day to day, I wondered if I would have to endure the pregnancy being a mom who put Netflix on for several hours a day to babysit my child. I cried, a lot. My hormones were all over the map. I had to remind myself time, and time again, that I should just be so grateful I had a healthy child inside me and that the sickness shall pass.
I had to let go of so much control. Blogging literally fell by the wayside. I did the thing I most despised- I only posted sponsored posts, the things I “had” to do since I had committed. Friendships were put on hold, I DID NOT work out at all, and I cancelled almost all of Lillian’s activities.
I finally found the light at the end of the tunnel. At 13 weeks, I woke up feeling like myself again. I regained my energy, stopped puking, and was able to work out again. Motherhood came back and my daughter and I were able to do things like go to the park and play again! My affection for my hubby came back, too. Second trimester is AWESOME! (This time.)
All in all, I am just so thrilled that we are blessed with our second child. My daughter is so excited to be a big sister. My belly is getting big and round, and I cannot wait to find out the sex. Babies are such a sweet miracle. I am in awe of God’s perfect timing and how much trust I had to put in Him for this whole process. The gift of a healthy baby is so sweet after recognizing how much it is truly out of our control.
We finally announced the news to friends and family (we told close family and church as soon as we knew), and are excited for the months to come!
Thanks to all of you out there who have continued to reach out during this time. Many mornings I have spent my time reading all of your life updates rather than sitting down to chronicle mine.
Now that I am feeling better I am so excited to get back to blogging. I have about 150 post ideas. Just gotta pace myself. 🙂