It is a little crazy I am posting this so late in the game, but I am happy to announce that I am pregnant! We are having our baby girl #2 in just one week. There have been so many times I almost posted this but was always a little hesitant.
See, last year I had a loss. Nineteen weeks into what seemed like a healthy pregnancy I lost my son. It was kind of a traumatic experience, like all losses and miscarriages are. The beautiful part is we were able to hold him and meet him before releasing him into the hands of God. It was an event that changed me forever in so many ways. For example, the way I view pregnancy, and my intense fear of losing this baby as well. Even though day to day that fear doesn’t seem real, I know it is, because it has been truly hard for me to sit and write about these things.
Yet God is SO good, and here we are, one week away from meeting another sweet miracle. She will be a rainbow baby, a sweet beacon of light and hope after a dark and stormy time in our lives.
Our five year old daughter is beyond thrilled to meet her baby sister. She’s been preparing by taking care of her baby dolls- dressing and feeding them, and being such a great caretaker.
Our house feels almost ready. I am exhausted, as all end of term pregnant moms tend to be. My body is sore- my belly huge! My back in pain. The days feel long but go super quick.
My heart is on the verge of bursting, I know that full well. I am SO beyond excited to grow our family and for my daughter to have a sister. That is the best gift I can think of giving her!
If I am or have been a little absent on my blog, this is why. Writing should always come from the heart and be genuine, honest, and real. Which is why I have waited to share my news until now.