There is nothing in the world that can prepare you for your first child. No amount of child birth classes, book readings, or babysitting. The awe and wonder at seeing your own child come from your body and be placed on your chest for the first time is breathtaking. All the pain from childbirth, pain from trying to conceive, and pain from worry or fear of being a parent vanishes.
As time moves on I am blown away by the love that grows inside my heart for Lillian. As I watch her little toes get bigger and her words form into somewhat understandable meanings, I am still in awe at the process of a child growing up.
The most magnificent part of being a mother is the fun that it brings in your life. I have always been a bit serious and sensitive, and have a tendency to take life way too seriously. Lillian has helped me with this, and she doesn’t even know it! She helps me belly laugh on a daily basis. She helps me stop and enjoy the little things, like plants and birds. She helps me to wonder in amazement at the colors in movies like Rio and Brave. Her innocence in the world helps me remember that there are so many beautiful and lovely things I take for granted on a daily basis. Oh, and food! Watching her eat limes for the first time, her mouth puckering at the strangeness of it- priceless! Her first time enjoying a piece of pumpkin pie and whipped cream had me filled with joy.
Being a mom has taught me that things that seemed important to me before- well they aren’t as important as I thought. Job status, my home decor, having the best clothes- it all pales in comparison to loving my child and watching her grow. I’d trade it all in an instant to see her healthy and feeling loved by her Mom and Dad.
I am grateful today for my daughter Lillian who has taught me so much. I am grateful for her Dad who is such a loyal, committed, and adventurous father for her. Above all, I am thankful to God for giving me these priceless blessings.