It is official! My little girl turned four a few days ago. Seems like just yesterday I brought her home from the hospital. I still remember sitting in the back sit next to her, marveling at her tiny fingers. My husband drove us home ever so caustiosly and were listening to Mumford and Sons. Time seemed to stand still that day. Everything seemed brand new. The whole world lit up with so many different sights, sounds and colors. Playgrounds came alive to me. My imagination sparked anew.
Wonder, joy, and adventure is exactly what this little girl has brought into our lives. Along with many sleepless nights, moments of fear beyond comprehension, and a new recognition of many emotions I never thought I had. The past four years have been delightful. They have gone too quickly. They have been hard. I have lost my patience too many times to count, but laughed more than I have in my whole life.
Full. That is the word I would used to describe my heart today. Full. Of joy, love, and hope. Full of plans and dreams. Full because when I step back and look at all that we have, the most important things I have are not things at all. They are the two people in my home that bring wrinkles of joy to my eyes and cause both tears of happiness and sadness to flow out. They keep me on my toes, keep me real, and keep me pushing on throughout the days I wanna throw in the towel.
Miss Lillian- you have brought delight into this momma’s heart. Every day watching you grow has been amazing. From your first day in our home, to the many nights I rocked you to sleep, you have stolen this heart. I look at you and see such immense beauty my eyes can hardly take it all in. God created you perfectly and wonderfully. He has crafted your heart in such a lovely fashion. Watching your emotions grow more complicated each day is like watching a garden of wildflowers- beautiful, unique, and ever changing. Four years could not have gone faster or changed me more. I look forward to each passing day I get to be your Momma, read you bedtime stories, play My Little Pony in our living room, and watch you try on dresses and high heels.